Unsurprisingly, the part of dealing with GFs and para-magic that keeps throwing Einiona isn't the part that will eventually involve setting things on fire (Einiona's missing all that fun due to taking PMGF 101 this semester and not MAG 101); it is, actually, the part where overuse risks amnesia, and the thought of that so sets her on edge it totally ruins her ability to properly learn the parts that would normally have her throwing her hands up and thinking to herself "FUCK YEAH THIS IS AWESOME". It frustrates her immensely, especially because the problem involves her own headspace and she likes ignoring that as much as possible.
All Einiona's got to herself is herself; the idea that even she could leave herself alone is so deeply, subconsciously terrifying that, even when she's not thinking about it, it interferes with her ability to perform even the most basic of para-magical skills. Not that she thinks about it much - she just knows "uh-uh, I like my brain where it is, thanks!"
... this doesn't appear to be stopping her from trying to learn, however. Hence the frustration, because Eionina finds this fascinating. She wants to master it. There's just something about the way GFs work that Einiona gravitates to; something about the system of drawing and junctioning that makes sense to her, like chips on a circuitboard.
It's a new system to take apart and analyze and understand and master, a new world to wrap her hands around and insert herself into, a chance to learn something fundamental about the inner workings of the universe, to take the unfamiliar by the horns and wrestle with it until it becomes as instinctive as breathing - it's hands-on interaction with how things work, and that provides the context to keep Einiona focused and addicted through almost any lecture ... and almost any failure.
She's still wary of using this stuff all that much once she can make it work, though. She wants to master it; that doesn't mean she trusts it.
Nevertheless, she's not having near as much (immediate) psychological difficulty with the whole concept as Rion, and so she has no problems helping him out ... albeit in her own special way.
Which is why she approaches Quistis with more than a little mischief in her eyes and without so much as a hello-how-are-you to segue into a conversation just opens up with, "So did you know you have a fanclub?"
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All Einiona's got to herself is herself; the idea that even she could leave herself alone is so deeply, subconsciously terrifying that, even when she's not thinking about it, it interferes with her ability to perform even the most basic of para-magical skills. Not that she thinks about it much - she just knows "uh-uh, I like my brain where it is, thanks!"
... this doesn't appear to be stopping her from trying to learn, however. Hence the frustration, because Eionina finds this fascinating. She wants to master it. There's just something about the way GFs work that Einiona gravitates to; something about the system of drawing and junctioning that makes sense to her, like chips on a circuitboard.
It's a new system to take apart and analyze and understand and master, a new world to wrap her hands around and insert herself into, a chance to learn something fundamental about the inner workings of the universe, to take the unfamiliar by the horns and wrestle with it until it becomes as instinctive as breathing - it's hands-on interaction with how things work, and that provides the context to keep Einiona focused and addicted through almost any lecture ... and almost any failure.
She's still wary of using this stuff all that much once she can make it work, though. She wants to master it; that doesn't mean she trusts it.
Nevertheless, she's not having near as much (immediate) psychological difficulty with the whole concept as Rion, and so she has no problems helping him out ... albeit in her own special way.
Which is why she approaches Quistis with more than a little mischief in her eyes and without so much as a hello-how-are-you to segue into a conversation just opens up with, "So did you know you have a fanclub?"